Mr & Mrs Smith

Oh where to start... In the "It finally started" post I said that I had finally started the process of IVF. (clever title, eh?) I also said that I hadn't really felt anything so far. Well, turns out I either jinxed myself or it was just too early to tell. I didn't have crazy effects, but one night I did cry all the way through "Master Chef" which is not really a crying show. haha. I also felt super "off" on Thursday. I'm not really sure how to describe it except to say just that. It was weird and I stayed in bed all day and cried and ate Blue Bell. I guess that's not the worst way to spend a day but it wasn't very productive either. haha. The shots got easier and easier to give myself up until I had to start taking the cetrotide. I only took it twice but both times it stung going in and lasted way longer than the others. No bueno in my book. The next new shot I had was the trigger shot. It came a day earlier than expected but that end...

Sorry, but does the title of this blog make anybody else want to sing?! Or am I the only weirdo?! haha. Anyway... I've been thinking about something lately that I wanted to share.  First let me say this..... At least part of the reason why I'm doing this blog and sharing all these rather personal things about our baby journey is because I believe that the more people you have in your circle that are praying for you, the easier it is to deal with things that are hard. of course, the most important person to lean on is our Savior Jesus Christ. But I know one thing for sure, He sent lots of people into my life to help me along the way and I'm not the kind of person to turn down the arm that's reaching out to help me. And I look for opportunities to help other people because I believe Heavenly father put me here to help others as well. So with that said, I want your love and support! I appreciate it when people comment and tell me they're praying for me. I feel th...

After all this waiting, we finally started! I went to the doc yesterday morning, had a blood draw and ultrasound and everything looked the way it was supposed to, so they gave me the go ahead to start poking myself. AHH! Here's a quick overview of the process that's about to happen. (I'm halfway through writing this and i realized some of you probably don't know what i'm talking about, so i'm coming up here to do a little time-line in hopes that the following will make a little more sense... ) We start with 10 days of drugs. (This post is all about that!) Then after 10 days, we do surgery to collect all the eggs. Justin does a sperm donation and they take the two and combine them in a petri dish in the lab. This is when they'll actually inject the sperm into the egg and where the classic photo of IVF comes from. (see just below!) Normally, they just put a bunch of sperm on top of the egg and let them do their job. But since Justin's sperm aren't sh...

Tonight we had mutual and it was a stake girls camp celebration and it reminded me of all the amazing awesome things we did and learned at camp, so I thought I'd share! I only went to girls camp once as a youth because of all the moving and summer vacations that we did. But I remember loving it! This year, I went as the Young Women's President and it was VERY different from my last experience. haha. Although it was difficult, it was still amazing and I probably learned more this time than when I went all those years ago. I was asked to give a talk about camp a couple weeks after and I shared a message that brought it all together and helped me realize why we go and do all the crazy hard stuff that camp requires. So to make a long story short, camp forces us to leave behind all the distractions of the world (No phone signal AT ALL!!!) and to focus on what's really important in this life. And while the gospel is at the center of that, it's not the only thing. You have to ...

Had an insight tonight that I wanted to share. :) There was a great Relief Society activity tonight where we learned from a very good speaker all about how to discipline our children with love. And while I don't have any children, I still felt like I could learn from her. And I did! She had a lot of great insights that I want to share, but that will have to be another blog post. :) Anyway, after the activity, I was eating a very delicious Root Beer Float (YUM!) and discussing the mysteries of the world with my gal pals from my ward. She was asking me about my upcoming craziness and we got to talking about the Lord's plan again. It seems that it's been a big topic of discussion for me lately. I think it's been a blessing recently that I've been able to see that although I don't know what the Lord's plan is, I can see that he has one, and I'm trusting Him that it's the best thing for me. But it seems that most the time, I end the conversation looking...

I have a thought right now and I want to write it down before I forget. I just got home from my parents's house and attending their stake's little fair. Well, by little I mean cute, not small. It was actually huge. haha. They had lots of people displaying their talents and a car show with probably 30 cars, some new some old. (And by new I mean 2014 model S Tesla and by old I mean 1065 Ford Mustang and even an old Model A from 1934. So cool!) Anyway, I lived in this ward for several years during high school so it was a great opportunity to see lots of people who I haven't seen in quite some time. One in particular was a favorite young women's leader. I had been pushing the stroller with my sister's baby in it and she asked if he was mine. And although I would normally claim him for my own because I'm SO in love with him, because of how well I knew her, I said no, and even told her we were trying to have our own and starting IVF next week. She was as sweet as alwa...

This morning I was reading an article I saw on Facebook about things you should and shouldn't say to couples who are struggling with infertility. I've read a few articles like this but this one was written particularly well. Most of them have good things to say but some are written with a lot of bitterness. Trust me, I understand why a person struggling with infertility would be bitter. The problem is that most people don't understand the issue. I have to admit I used to be one of them. I don't think I ever said some of the things that have been said to me, but I never thought for a million years that I'd be the one that couldn't get pregnant.  Anyway, I wish I could find that article I read this morning and I'd just share it, but that's not the point of this post. I recommend every one of you read something like it and try to understand the way we (as in those who struggle with infertility) feel. I'm sorry if you get one with lots of sarcasm and r...

One of the reasons I decided to delve into the blog world again was because of the journey Justin and I have been on the past few years that's finally coming to a high point and hopefully end. I share these experiences because when I started realizing what was happening to us, I searched online to find people that were going through something similar. So... The ailment? Drum roll please.... http://www.conceiveeasy.com/get-pregnant/4-signs-of-infertility/ This image isn't mine, but it sums it up pretty well... It's hard to deal with and people don't realize how many people are dealing with it. When I started sharing what I was feeling, people started coming out of the woodwork to share their feelings. It meant a lot to me so I figure maybe somebody out there could use my experience as well. So..  I've wanted kids my whole life, and I'm pretty sure my mom asked me for grand kids on my wedding day. (I was the first sibling to get married so she was...

So a brief introduction on who Mr and Mrs Smith are... This is Justin. - It's a little old but one of my favs! He's the greatest hubby the world's ever seen. He's handsome, smart, sweet, funny and everything else a girl could ask for. One day maybe I'll write a post all about him and tell you why he's so amazing. He just started working for Brent Brown Toyota in Orem and he loves it! He already loved cars so now he gets to talk about them all day. What could be better! When he's not selling cars, he's the Elder's Quorum President in our ward. I hesitate to say anything about it, mostly cuz he would hate me for it. But he dedicates a lot of his time to serving those in our ward and he's really good at it. There's nothing more important to him that the work he does in the church and I love him infinitely for it.  This is me. :) - Pretty recent but not professional in any way shape or form! I'm prolly not the greate...

Truth be told, this isn't the first blog I've ever started. In fact, i'm pretty sure they're still out there under an old e-mail address. I started one once that was supposed to just be pictures and stories of my life as I started college. Good idea, but I was way too busy being a hooligan to stay on top of it. Then a few years later we were counseled by the brethren to use technology and social media to spread the gospel, so I started one to try to post a message of faith every day. The "every day" thing didn't work so well for me and I ended up quitting pretty quickly. So this time I'm gonna try something a little different. I want to write about what we're going through in the moment, but from time to time, I think I'll write about things from the past that I should have written down a long time ago. I think I might also write some things that I've already written in my  paper journal in case that gets lost or ruined. I suppose that cou...