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A New Beginning

Truth be told, this isn't the first blog I've ever started. In fact, i'm pretty sure they're still out there under an old e-mail address. I started one once that was supposed to just be pictures and stories of my life as I started college. Good idea, but I was way too busy being a hooligan to stay on top of it. Then a few years later we were counseled by the brethren to use technology and social media to spread the gospel, so I started one to try to post a message of faith every day. The "every day" thing didn't work so well for me and I ended up quitting pretty quickly. So this time I'm gonna try something a little different. I want to write about what we're going through in the moment, but from time to time, I think I'll write about things from the past that I should have written down a long time ago. I think I might also write some things that I've already written in my  paper journal in case that gets lost or ruined. I suppose that could happen to this blog as well, as did my other ones, but hopefully my new resolve will carry me through. 

Anyway, I hope this blog makes it to some one that needs to hear whatever I have to say. If not, I hope it makes it to my kids and grand kids one day so they can know me better. Either way, here's to "Mr. & Mrs. Smith." :)




(P.S. That's Martinelli, not champagne. In case you were wondering.)

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