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I have a thought right now and I want to write it down before I forget. I just got home from my parents's house and attending their stake's little fair. Well, by little I mean cute, not small. It was actually huge. haha. They had lots of people displaying their talents and a car show with probably 30 cars, some new some old. (And by new I mean 2014 model S Tesla and by old I mean 1065 Ford Mustang and even an old Model A from 1934. So cool!) Anyway, I lived in this ward for several years during high school so it was a great opportunity to see lots of people who I haven't seen in quite some time. One in particular was a favorite young women's leader. I had been pushing the stroller with my sister's baby in it and she asked if he was mine. And although I would normally claim him for my own because I'm SO in love with him, because of how well I knew her, I said no, and even told her we were trying to have our own and starting IVF next week. She was as sweet as always and said she was sorry that I had to deal with that but then she said something that made me think. She said "Isn't it funny that you probably chose that! Heavenly Father told you you'd have challenges and you said 'OK! I can do it!'" Now, I don't know whether or not I knew exactly what challenges I would face in this life, but it is certain that I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I chose to follow Jesus Christ and come to Earth to have this experience.

In October of 2010, Elder Hales said "In our premortal state we chose to follow the Savior Jesus Christ! And because we did, we were allowed to come to earth." We knew the plan that Heavenly Father had set out for us and we chose to follow it. This thought struck me today when my leader mentioned that I knew I would face great challenges and I chose to accept them. And the fact that I chose to have challenges to me implies that I wanted them. In order to become like our heavenly Father, we had to face challenges, so I think we really did want them. And somehow the fact that I chose them, that I wanted them, makes them easier to deal with. I know that Heavenly Father wouldn't give me more than I can handle and He gave me a Savior to help carry the burden. With that knowledge, I don't think there's a single trial that I can't face with courage and strength.

Elder Hales continues with "I testify that by making the same choice to follow the Savior now, while we are here on earth, we will obtain an even greater blessing in the eternities." That  also give me strength to keep going. Heavenly Father has gobs and gobs of blessing that he's waiting to give us if we'll just make good choices and continue to follow the Savior. So thank you to my old leader for reminding me that I chose and I will be blessed for sticking it out. :)

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