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Suddenly got real...

I had a bit of a moment today and I wanted to share...

We had our first real ultrasound!

 We had one at 6 weeks and got to hear the heartbeat. And it was pretty amazing. We both cried and were really excited. And then I guess you're supposed to have another at 8 weeks at your first OB appointment, but it was a crazy day at the office and we had already been there for like 3 hours. (And that's not an exaggeration!) So they said if we wanted, we could just reschedule the ultrasound for another day. So we did, but it was 2 days before Christmas and we didn't end up making it. I guess partly because I assumed we would get another ultrasound at 12 weeks, so I was ok with missing it. Anyway, we didn't get one. ha. She used a little one to hear the heartbeat but even then it was faint and she didn't try very hard. Bummer!!

So this time, we paid a little extra money (Only $35!) and went to another clinic to find out the gender! Unfortunately, we don't know yet. We're waiting till our little gender reveal party that's on Thursday, so we'll all have to wait a little longer. No worries, it will get it's own special post. BUT it was the first time we got to see that there was actually a little baby inside, not just a kind of mysterious little mass that's been making me sick for all this time. haha. It's not that I wasn't excited but getting to see his/her little face and arms and legs was absolutely amazing. She didn't spend a ton of time showing us what everything was. In fact, there wasn't much at all, but we did see the little face and saw her actually move! It was seriously amazing.

So for the rest of the day I've been feelin my normal hungry-but-don't-want-food, and all the other physical stuff that's been normal for the past little while, but then when I would feel my tummy and brace for whatever little thing I was feeling, I was able to picture the actual little baby in me. It suddenly got very real and made it super worth it to be going through all this trouble for this little one. I don't know what it is, but I know it's my baby, and it's really there! I don't have to rely on the picture from my "What to expect" iPhone app anymore.

I know that sounds silly, but it was kind of a big deal for Justin and I. We held hands and cried and it was a really beautiful moment. I'm soooo excited about all of this and seriously can not wait to find out whether or not it's a little Justin or a little Jessie. I still think it's a girl but as long as it's healthy, it doesn't matter even one bit. So many parts of me wants a boy, if anything, just for Justin. He so needs his little basketball player!!! But to see him wrapped around his little daughter's fingers would be something from a story book, so really I'm good either way.

Stay tuned for a post on Friday!! And thanks for reading. :)


  1. I'm so excited for you guys! There is no greater miracle on this earth than creating another life.

  2. I LOVE reading your posts, they make me smile and giggle. Anyways, I can't wait to find out the gender! I think it'll be a girl but as you said, either gender will be AMAZING! I am beyond excited for you two and so happy that this is reality and actually happening. Can't wait until Friday! :)


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